3 Years

Over the next 30 days I have signed up for a free promotion system. My goal isn’t a large fan base. My goal is to help other guys that struggle with lust and pornography. Whether you are here from headliner or here because you know me, you should read this. Please bear with my as I explain the past 3 years of guilt. (great way to start a post, right?).

I will try to be as transparent as I can but would like to keep this PG if I can. Three years ago it’s the summer of 2010. Life is going great. I am spending the night at my dad’s side grandparents. They put me up in a room with a comfortable bed, and a room filled with pornographic magazines. I have seen them before but never actually seen them. They were always classified as “Grandpa’s reading material”. Slowly I take a look. I feel great and free looking at those magazines. I actually sat by the door just in case anyone came by, but for hours that night I scanned through them.

Months went by and my birthday came up in October. I had been saving up for an iPod touch. Finally, I bought it. Excited by the whole thing, I played and watched movies with that thing like crazy. It was the end of October 2010. I was up late playing on my iPod and wanted to do some research on a certain app. I went to a site and saw an ad. Right away the ad reminded me of what I saw at my grandparents. That’s when my addiction started.

The rest is what you would call history. I was hooked. During the last 3 years I was challenged more times than I can count to stop my addiction. But I wouldn’t.

A great guy I met at Lake Ann told me that as guys, we love porn. We love it, but the thing is, we can only love one thing, either God or porn.

It was that week at Lake Ann that I gave my sin to Christ. I have failed many times after that, but overall have been better. The reason why I say the last 3 years were hell is because when you are watching porn, you are always guilty, you always think someone will hear or someone will walk in. Or the people at school will hear. Who cares? They might give you looks, but it is worth it to get it off your chest. You don’t have to tell the world either. I did, but you don’t have to. So my story is over, well not just yet. Through this blog I want to see people come clean with their sin. I want to see lives changed just like my own. That is my mission, that is my goal.

If you want to beat it, here is what you need to accomplish.

1. Confess. Don’t you dare tell Jesus you are sorry and it won’t happen again. Get down on your knees and cry over your sin, confess it to God.

2. Buddy System. Just the same as swimming we must always have a buddy, or buddies. Every time I was challenged about my addiction there was no one behind me. Having a strong group of guys behind you is great, even one or 2 will help.

3. Be Open and Honest. First off be as open and honest as you can. Easier said than done.

4. Stay in the Word. This is crucial in the battle against sin.

5. Last, but certainly not least, J.O.Y

Jesus

Others

You

Remember that you must put God first before anything and everything. He must come first! Then others: put other people before yourself. No matter how much you hate them (I really struggle with this). You: We all need time to sit back and reflect. Make time to relax, but do no become selfish with it. Take time to read the Word, but never forget your real mission.

The battle has been won, but the war has just begun. Get ready, it only gets worse. This is the truth about our sin, it won’t get easier. Now that you are conscious that it is a sin and ready to fight it, it only makes Satan try harder to make you stumble. He will be hiding, ready to trip us up. Get ready, get some buddies, and get back to what really matters.

If you have lasted this long reading this post please like, comment, share it. Whatever you are challenged to do. Don’t be ashamed by your past, but be conscious of your future.

In Love

-Cody Sweeny

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Um Hello there

My name is Cody Sweeny, I am writing this blog for reasons I don’t yet know. I got the idea a while back to keep a journal. Well I am horrible about trying to keep up with a journal so I am trying the idea of a blog. I don’t want my blog to be all about my struggles and how much my life sucks, but to be much more than that. I want to show what God has been doing in my life, from the little things to the big things. First off: Last night I was up late and forgot to set my alarm for the morning. I woke up exactly at 6:55am, the same exact time my alarm is usually set(or after I hit the snooze). That was awesome! From my point of view that was a God thing.

If you go to my church Lakeside Fellowship(lakesidefellowship.com), you probably already know my biggest struggle. Porn and lust. Bear with my as I try to explain. I started off by telling 1 person. Matt, my Lake Ann cabin counselor. Then I told 400. Most of those I don’t even know, but many went to or go to my youth group. After that I went and told my church of 300 people that I know, and now I am telling the world(scary huh?). Society makes us(guys) believe that we can watch porn and stare at girls. Seriously you ask any normal guy if they like girls. Well obviously yes. The big thing about this is that many people see it as a cruse. God made Adam want Eve. Adam lusted after Eve. This is great if you are married, lusting after your partner, but not if you’re single. Girls if you are reading this don’t be creaped out, this is how guys are and it doesn’t help what you wear. “It’s good not to eat meat or to drink wine nor anything by which your brother stumbles, offended, or is made weak.”(Romans 14:21). Think about it, this verse isn’t just talking about food or drink. It is talking about anything! Anything! ANYTHING! okay, get the point? So enough of my rant. In all honesty it is my fault that I let me self fall into this sin. Mine alone, yes society might not help very much, but I am the one that looked. I saw one picture and I was hooked, hook line and sinker or stinker in my case. I should have had the courage to tell someone, but I didn’t. Now I am suffering the consequences of it. After seeing so much you only want more. It’s like chocolate. You eat one piece, and then a second, sooner or later you are on your 200 pieces. You are so sick of chocolate, that you see it, you know its bad, but you only want more. I am in the process of “cleansing my mind”. When I used look at a girl, or a sister in Christ I see them like the people I’ve seen in all those movies. My goal is to change that, I am now active in the Word. Now I am 4 days with out my drug. You’ll look at me and be like, “wait what?”. This is a huge accomplishment. Even though I struggle occasionally, I am able to talk to girls and sisters in Christ and I can see them as they are. Another human being and not just a tool. This might sound horrible but this is what porn does to you. Most guys are great liars and hiders. We can hide what is in our heart, can be good can be bad, mostly bad. I am very guilty of this very same thing. I am getting better, and most of all I am trusting God more then I am myself. I have an accountability partner, and a great church behind me. I have 15 guys, all throughout the world, that I can call on at any moment and they will talk to me and help me through any struggle. I encourage you, if you are a guy, to stuff your pride and be open and honest. I encourage you girls, no you don’t get out of this either, to be supportive of guys that struggle with this, and remember that modesty is key. I’m not saying to go back to ankle high dresses or something like that, but to be considerate of guys that might(probably are) struggling.

Thank you, Cody Sweeny

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